लिखता भी तो दर्द है ...

रात की कलि स्याही को दिल मैं कुछ ऐसे उतरा है

की कमबख्त लिखता भी तो दर्द है ...

मैं और मेरी चित्रकला ...

कल रात नींद को पलकों पे बिठा ते बिठाते बहुत रात गुज़र गया। जैसे एक ज़ंग मेरे अन्दर चल रहा था। टीवी की उत्तेजना भरी आवाज़ से परे मेरा मन किसी और चीज़ को तलाश रहा था। न जाने वो चीज़ उसे मिला के नहीं। बहुत देर तक बिस्तर पे पड़े पड़े नींद को तरस रहा था पर फिर भी नहीं आयी । अचानक अपनी diary का ख्याल आया तो मैं उठ बैठा। दो पल धुन्दने के बाद मुझे मेरी दिअरी मिल गया और साथ में पड़ा एक पेंसिल भी मिला। जाने क्या आया दीमाग मैं अपने मन्दिर के दीवार पे मैं एक दिया का चित्र आंकने मैं व्यस्त हो गया। मैंने अपने अन्दर कभी चित्रकला की इतना आग्रह नहीं देखा था। जिसने कभी सीधी लकीर न खींची हो उसके दीमाग मैं चित्रकला की रूचि कुछ अजब लगा। मात्र मैं इन सब भावनाओं से दूर उस दियी को आंकने मैं लगा गया। मेरे diary मैं अंकित दिए को देख देख के मैंने दिए को एक पूर्ण रूप देने मैं सफल हुआ। उसे कुछ देर पहले मेरे आराध्य गणपति की एक छवि भी मेरे पेंसिल से दीवार पे प्रकट हुए । मेरे सरे बंधुगन मुझसे दूर हो चुके हैं और कल अकेला बैठा था तो उनके यादों के साये भी मुझे बिचलित कर रहे थे। जाने कैसा अजीब सा एक बातावरण बना हुआ था कल मेरे गरीबखाने मैं । ये सब सोच जब दीमाग मैं खलबली मचा रहे थे तभी धीरे से मेरे ज्ञान से परे एक गहरी कलि रात ने मुझे नींद के हवाले करते हुए अपना फ़र्ज़ निभाया और मेरे चढ़ती उतरती ज़िन्दगी को एक अल्प्बिराम देते हुए मुझे कुछ राहत दी...

एक खुदा ही तो किस्मत लिखता है और मिटा ता भी

मैं तो एक तिनका हूँ तूफ़ान भी उसका ..... समंदर भी ....

the pursuit of happiness.

The day before yesterday was a day wherein i got to realize my dream . For the first time i realized that i too have something to do on this earth. Even i had many a plans for life but in my career i got a new direction and got a new destiny and since then i am feeling restless to make it a reality. This all happened because of a Hollywood film namely " the pursuit of Happiness". I was a good fan of Mr.Will Smith and i had witnessed him in independence day and liked his performance and the day before yesterday after seeing the Movie I am a die had fan of the ace actor. I am impressed about his dynamic personality and would love to meet him once in my life. This is because of him only i am able to find my goal in life and the day will come when i will write my success story and will be a better satisfied man. till then its all a top secret...

in sa allah ...amen

रक्ष्या बंधन

अंततः कल मैंने रक्ष्या बंधन मन लिया। वैसे तो १६ तारीख को था पर हमारी बेहें साहिबा को टाइम कहाँ था हमारे लिए। उनको याद आतातब तक ४ दिन गुज़र चुके थे। पर कमबख्त को याद था और क्यों की वो अपने घर पे थी चार दिन कुछ नहीं खाया है ढक्कन ने । कल बड़े मुद्दतो बाद मे उसे मिला उअर खुद सेंटी हो गया। वो भी कुछ ऐसी ही थी । गाड़ी मे बैठते ही उसने राखी बंधी और उसकी आँखों मैं आंसू । पुरे रस्ते वो रही मैं पूछता रहा ... मेरे सवाल नहीं ख़तम हुए पर रास्ता ख़तम हो गया। उसने गाड़ी भी ले लिया है ... जिम्मेदारिया समझने लगी है और बड़ी हो गयी है । अछा लगा उससे मिल कर। जाते जाते मैंने कहा के कभी जरुरत पड़े तो याद कर लिया कर तो सवालिया नजरूं से देखने लगी...खैर खुस रहे वो और इसे ज्यादा कुछ नहीं चैहिये मुझे...

The most debated Issue across Borders ( Kashmir)

These days the international Community is keeping eyes on Pakistan as musharraf Resigns and the valley of Kashmir Because of the Issue with the land dispute with the Amarnath Shrine Board. With Mushraff resigning on his terms and conditions the pakistani Government is ready to announce the next president's name. But the the issue with the land dispute with the Amarnath shrine Board is very much Intensifying day to day. I clearly dont know when the land dispute issue became an issue of Freedom of the Kashmir Valley. The kashmir dispute is not a day old issue but it is a 61 year issue between to neighbouring country. This part of Land on the Himalayan foothills has been in news and a National agenda for Pakistan. Even It has landed few wars between the two countries and resulting into the birth of a third country Bangladesh,but still pakistan is having issues with Kashmir. This issue did not get any hype in Indian or International media as the international community too considers this as an integral part of India. Pakistan has a national agenda for the country and have declared kashmir as a national issue and that is the reason Kashmir is important for pakistan. Again pakistan has no national agenda and not having any vision in any field. That may be a reason for which every Political or the army ruler has put Kashmir as a national issue for pakistan to drive popularity and votes for the party. The general public and the economic condition of the country pakistak is too bad but the government is least bothered about that but they spend huge money on defence expenditure and in the name of security. Recently the Amarnath shrine board had got some land as its property but some dispute happened and the land was taken away and the Governor was transfered by the Congress Let UPA Govt in Delhi. That is where it all started and till date its hunger strikes,Road blockages to national band has been observed to protest the moov. people with every religion have participated in the issue... This is the way how kasmir was in news again. Few political parties again playing dirty politics and the agenda is now shifted from Amarnath shrine board to the Issue of Kashmir and its freedom. Again VHP and other Hindu Extremists too taking this opportunity to ignite Communal insurgency in different part of the country. The UPA govt is much serious about the issue as the Prime minister has urged all Political parties to get the issue resolved in a better and quickest way to retain peace in the valley. Yesterday I read that Arundhati Roy too has written that people of Kashmir want freedom from India and Pakistan. Who the Hell is she to say this. I think She is just misusing her popularity to draw some cheap popularity. Lets just refrain from the unnecessary agitating and cheap politics and let the issue be resolved ASAP. Anyway we have leaders from the state of jammu and Kashmir and we have an Assembly as well in the state. Please Let them do their work and lets don't disturb and create agitation in between.

( this is my perception and altogether my views on the issue.. if you have anything to say you are welcomed to put comments)

india in Beijing olympics 2008

Monday it was a big blow to the Indian Hope for Medals in the ongoing Beijing Olympics when Akhil Kumar lost his match, a win could have placed him in the run for a medal. But in a clear 3 set defeat by Moldovan Veaceslav Gojan in the quater final. The Haryana Boxer had high hopes for a medal in the race but the loss put him into a frustrating situation. The whole match was dominated by the ace Boxer Gojan who did not allow Akhil to get a punch by his excellent back footwork. It seemed Gojan was well prepared and Akhil seemed less worked out on his game plan. He missed the bulls eye with shere ambition with out a strategy. With this loss Akhil who had created a joyful ambiance in the Indian squad i beijing is out of the Game. With this the medal winning hope have shifted their base to Bijeinder and Jitender who will be playing their quarterfinal matches to the hope to win medals in nest matches. Lets wish them Best Of Luck...